No luck

I am not sure what happened, but we had no luck with round 1. I took a pregnancy test on Friday and it was negative. I then started cramping and spotting later that day. That night I worked, and my period came on full force - really heavy bleeding and clotting, which is not typical for me. It was also only day 25 for this cycle, which, for me is a short cycle. It did give me 12 days in my luteal phase, but still my cycle was shortened by 3 days for some reason.

I spoke with my Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) today and she said that Clomid can have an affect on one's menstrual cycle and bleeding flow. She wants to start me on Clomid again on days 3-7 and follow up with an ultrasound on day 10 to check my follicle production. She said she would also recommend using some progesterone in this cycle for support should an egg become fertilized.

To be honest, I am quite disappointed. Not only that we are not pregnant, but that we spent close to $600 and received nothing for it. It is also hard to understand how 9 million sperm could not meet up with at least 1 of 4 eggs. It really is a mystery. It also makes me quite nervous as I know now that I only have 3 rounds left. Only 3 more chances to conceive before my RE recommends IVF. That makes me depressed. Thinking that we are just that much closer to the end of our chances and facing the fact that we will not be able to have our own children. I know I should not get ahead of myself. 3 more IUIs also means that we do have 3 more 36% chances of conceiving. I am hoping it happens in round 2 or 3 and not in 4 or never.

Sigh. Had a bit of a cry about it but am now trying to be more optimistic. Just not sure how much disappointment I can take. I am really hoping for success with the round 2 and am going to look into other things I can do to increase my chances of conceiving and implanting.